what kind of artist do you want to be?

I started spiral eyedd with the feeling that making products and physical things was superficial.

We really don’t need more things - the world has enough emissions and environmental terror. So yeah, it felt a bit selfish to begin this. And you may read that and think “oh shit I shouldn’t buy this” and to be honest I’d understand. 

But you aren’t just buying a piece of clothing.

Arts sustain us, my whole process has been a transformation of self and aligning with the way I want to exist in the world. Supporting this brand is supporting that development and perhaps your own. Representing artists who keep going in the face of difficult times, it’s important to me that spiral eyedd is about more than just the clothes or the products. It made me question, what type of art do I want to make? Why does it matter?

Dance, painting, participatory and community art are the root of my meaning in this world. But making this type of art is not the most lucrative endeavour. It has lead to burnt out, anxiety, and I want to change that for myself and others. I want to be financially stable, and not in a money hungry, personal gain, scarcity way BUT one of having the ability to invest more into art spaces I want to make and practices that shape my world. 

I’m transitioning to being a full time freelance artist. Setting up this site and creating this brand is the first step of that journey.

It’s all about taking my art and creating a roadmap towards the things that are most authentic to me. Sharing my story of dealing with CPTSD and figuring out how to make a living from art.

Learning from trying something that I have no idea will work out. 

The kind of artist I am is one that is so persistent. In the face of a pandemic, I chose to continue creating. In school and out of it, I have always found ways to create outside of classes or my survival jobs. And I want to be super clear that choosing to not create in the face of barriers is so respectable because art in this economy/ current world state is gut wrenchingly HARD. 

I am so stubborn though. Maybe one day this path will crash and burn, but I severely doubt it because I believe in myself so fiercely. There’s a deep hum in my soul saying “create, keep going.” It’s an undeniable feeling and I can’t ignore it. 

Facing this choice is the kind of artist I am. In a world of self branding social media frenzy, it’s a decision to world build and build not just for yourself but others. I want to cultivate creative community more than anything, and I want to take others along with me as I go about this journey. I am an artist who goes after what she wants. Doing this project, building spiral eyedd, is a culmination of that. I’m ready to see where it goes, I’m prepared to fail - but I know in my bones it won’t. 

So I ask who is the artist reading this? What will you create? How can we support each other?